Woman Manifested: I Control Who I Give Sex To, Not You!

This is the second recording of the 'Woman Manifested' series. Please listen and give feedback. I want to know your opinions. The script is also below.

WELCOME TO THE WORLD OF A WOMAN MANIFESTED. TODAY’S TOPIC IS “I CONTROL WHO I GIVE SEX TO, NOT YOU.” LAST WEEK I SPOKE ON HOW WE AS BLACK WOMEN ARE EXPECTED TO FIGHT FOR BLACK MEN IN GOOD TIMES AND IN BAD TIMES TOO. HOWEVER, ALL I ASK IS THAT THEY ARE THERE FOR ME TOO.

I WISH I COULD NAME A TON OF MEN THAT HAVE BEEN THERE FOR ME, TAKING ME ON DATES, INTRODUCING ME TO THEIR FRIENDS AND FAMILY, GIVING ME THAT INVITATION INTO THEIR PRIVATE LIVES, TREATING ME SPECIAL. I WISH I COULD NAME A FEW THAT HAVE BEEN THERE TO HOLD ME AND COMFORT ME WHEN I NEEDED IT. BUT I CAN’T THINK OF ANY.

THERE HAVE BEEN A FEW THAT ANSWERED THE PHONE, BUT THEY WEREN’T COMING TO MY HOUSE TO MAKE SURE I WAS ALLRIGHT OR CURSING ANYONE OUT IN MY DEFENSE.

 WHAT MEN HAVE BEEN WILLING TO DO IS GET SEX FROM ME. SOME OF THEM HAVEN’T SUGARCOATED IT. THE MINUTE THEY STARTED HAVING A CONVERSATION WITH ME, THEY EXPRESSED THEIR DESIRE. THEY EXPRESSED THAT THEY WANTED NOTHING MORE. THEY PROVED THEY WANTED NOTHING MORE BY NEVER SPEAKING TO ME AGAIN WHEN I TOLD THEM NO.

I’VE ONLY HAD SEX WITH EIGHT MEN, SO A LOT OF MEN HAVE BEEN TOLD NO.

SOME EXPRESSED THAT THEY ONLY WANTED SEX BY NEVER FOLLOWING THROUGH WITH PLANS, BUT ALWAYS KEEPING IN TOUCH WITH ME.

FOR EXAMPLE, THIS 35 YEAR OLD HAS CLAIMED HE WANTED TO TAKE ME OUT ON SEVERAL OCCASIONS, BUT HE NEVER STUCK TO HIS PLANS. HE ALWAYS ACTED LIKE HE FORGOT. I MET HIM ON A DATING SITE, SO I DON’T TRUST HIM ENOUGH FOR A NETFLIX AND CHILL TYPE OF PLAN. I CAN ONLY ASSUME SEX IS WHATS ON HIS MIND AND WHY HE CHOOSES TO DISAPPOINT ME.

THEN THERE WAS THIS GUY I DID HAVE SEX WITH UP UNTIL AN EXPERIENCE WITH ANOTHER WOMAN CALLING ME FROM HIS PHONE. I WROTE ABOUT HIM IN MY BOOK. WE DIDN’T SPEAK FOR A YEAR, MAYBE MORE, AND THEN ONE DAY EARLIER THIS SUMMER HE CALLED ME AND ASKED IF HE COULD COME OVER. A LOT WAS SAID IN THE CONVERSATION BUT ONE THING HE SAID THAT STOOD OUT WAS, HE ASKED HOW I MANAGE TO GO WITHOUT SEX.

WELL BACK IN 2011 I AFTER A COUPLE OF WEEKS OF MAKING HIM WAIT, I AGREED TO HAVE SEX WITH THIS GUY. A COUPLE OF WEEKS WAS REALLY TOO SOON, BUT I LET HIS PRESSURING ME GET TO MY HEAD. IT WAS OKAY UNTIL AFTERWARDS WHEN HE SAID IF I WOULD HAVE MADE HIM WAIT ANY LONGER HE WOULD HAVE LOST INTEREST IN ME.

THAT WAS QUITE POSSIBLY THE WORST THING SOMEONE HAS EVER TOLD ME, BECAUSE THIS IS MY BODY AND I DECIDE WHAT TO DO WITH IT. NEVER IN MY LIFE HAVE I EVER HAD A GOAL TO BE SEEN AS A SEX OBJECT, BUT REFERENCES LIKE THAT REMIND ME THESE MEN STRUGGLE WITH UNDERSTANDING THAT.

MAYBE ONE DAY SOME MAN WILL COME INTO MY LIFE AND GET IT ALL CORRECT. HE WILL LOVE MY BODY AND HE WILL LOVE MY MIND.

I AM LASHUNTRICE, THE AUTHOR OF WOMAN MANIFESTED: A POETIC TALE. CHECK MY BOOK OUT ON AMAZON.

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