Unsent Letter

Yesterday
I wrote him
A letter
Thought
Careful And Hard
About
What I would
Tell him
Didn’t want to
Come on
Too strong
Didn’t want to
Scare him
So for a while
I just stared
At the paper
Hoping the words
Would just jump
Out of
My brain
Express my emotions
In such
A perfect way
Until finally
My fingers
Decided to
Pick up
A pen
And just
Caress that paper


Yesterday I
Wrote him
A letter
Was scared
At first
Feared he didn’t
Want to hear
What was
On my mind
But as I
Touched the paper
With a
Smooth moving pen
My worries
Were erased
I spilled
My guts
Wrote about
When we
First got to
Know
Each other
I think
We were supposed
To Be
Studying
But who really
Needs notes
When concentrating on
Making
A love connection

Yesterday
I wrote
Him a letter
Started off with
My initial perception
Of him
Thought
He was
Special
Didn’t see him
As a boy
Yeah, to me
He was a
Man
Couldn’t do no
Wrong
He had me
Wide open
With the
Texts
Phone calls
That unfortunately led
To emotional
Sexual desires
How every time
I saw him
Felt like
My heart
Was on fire
Like a moth
To a flame
I was burned

Yesterday
I wrote him
A letter
Tried to explain
How it was
My fault
That
We ended up
This way
Maybe the invitation
To come over
Was
Too much
Or telling him
To hush
Keep it a
Secret
But
Didn’t really
Mean it
Was just scared
Didn’t want to
Hear
Anyone’s opinion
But even
Hid from him
When he hurt
My feelings
Thought it
Didn’t matter
Cause I was
Never his
No claim
No fate


Yesterday
I wrote him
A letter
Explained to him
How I was
Hurt
And his
Physical touch
Couldn’t
Wipe away
My emotional pain
Thought all I had
To do
Was cry while
The rain wiped
Away
My tears
Then everything would
Be clear
And I could
Be with him
Again
Consumed with
Too much hurt
Had to
Let him go

Yesterday
I wrote him
A letter
Explained how it
Wasn’t easy
Still
I
Craved
To
Be
With
Him
And
Still
The
Memories
Burn
In
My Brain
Although
I’m trying to
Move on
Something
In Me
Still longs for him
But
Unfortunately
Because my feelings
Go too deep
The letter
He didn’t receive


This is for every girl out there that is still holding on to the memory of what once was.