Reflections

It's September 11Th again. This is a day that will burn into people's minds forever because of the terrorist attacks on September 11,2001. Every one's reflecting on where they were on that day, but I want to do something different...

These are some reflections on my life
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REFLECTIONS--
At this point in my life I feel like I may be going through a quarter-life crisis. I'm evaluating every single move I make and questioning every single move I need to make in the future. I'm confused so the best way to heal some of this confusion is to go back in my past.


*People pleaser--
I remember when I was little and lived in Missouri City (to be exact Hunters Point). I hated playing outside alone and was an only child at that period of time. I would bring snacks outside for the other kids when they came to play with me. My mother stopped that soon after I started doing it. I realized at that point that if I had something to offer people then I would never have to feel lonely. This may have been the start of my people pleaser stage.



*Inevitable change--
In middle school I started growing apart from those people I had called friends for so long. I didn't want to grow apart from them so I tried to force the change away for a little while. The change became apparent when I had to switch schools in the middle of my eighth grade year. This is when I learned change is inevitable (whether anyone likes it or not).


*Standing Out--

In high school everyone has their bad experiences and I am no different. During these times I thought (despite the fact that I went to a small high school) that if I didn't draw any attention to myself then life could go by smoothly. I was wrong. I now realize that there is no hiding in the shadows. Everyone gets noticed and judged for something. Standing out in the crowd is inevitable.

*Since those days I've faced a lot more dilemnas. I've learned to deal with some of the craziness thrown my way and I am sure more lessons to learn will be thrown my way in the future.

These are some of my reflections. Hope you enjoyed.