Monday, January 30, 2017

It Has Been Almost A Year Since I Became An Author

On February 24th, 2017 my book "Woman Manifested: A Poetic Tale" turns one years old. Yeah, it has been almost a whole year since I self published my first book and I'm thankful for the people that have been there to show that they noticed me moving forward in my goals, the people that have purchased a book, and the people that read and gave feedback.

The day I announced on Facebook that my book was available felt wonderful. Over a 100 people clicked the like button on that post. Several people said they would purchase a copy. They were showing love. The feeling was amazing until I started checking for purchases. For several weeks only one person actually supported by purchasing. After that only a few close friends took the time to get their copies. That excitement I was initially feeling started to fade. So may insecure thoughts ran through my mind, but the biggest one way maybe it wasn't time. Maybe I released the book too early or maybe I should have waited until there was a real demand for me as an author. Well, an article online gave me a little bit of hope.

The article was on a self published author whose book started to get an overwhelming amount of purchases after six months of the book out. Could that also happen to me? I wished, but nah. After six months, my book promotions were being ignored with the exception of a few people. I had become the invisible writer, but I started on a second book to take my mind off the lack of support from the first book. The second book, "This Is For The Lover In You" is a series of poetry based on my love life. I've gotten even less support from that book, but this is not what this post is about.

To highlight that a year is coming up since I put "Woman Manifested: A Poetic Tale" up for sale, I decided to post up an excerpt, "A Moment of Freedom," because after years of operating in the adult world, it is still a great example of what life can feel like.

A Moment of Freedom (Poem From "Woman Manifested: A Poetic Tale)

Red hair, Don't care.
Tired of being the same old me
No more aiming to please
So today I put on m red wig
Those other girls black and blonde
They're not trying to stand out
"Blend in, Blend in"
They whisper for me to do the same
There's no success in change
But I'm tired of listening
Red wig
Bright blue eye shadow
Loud pink lipstick
There's a camera
I smile and say cheese
But they don't see me
In their eyes there is the same old girl
Stuck in the same quiet world
She has no real goals
No achievable dreams
When was the last time she smiled?
When was the last time she cried?
No emotions are found in her face
There's no home to call her own
No real potential because she never listens But I have potential
It lies in my freedom
So I look in the mirror
First goes on the bright blue eye shadow So when they look in my eyes
They'll see a brand new girl
then goes the pink lipstick
A color reserved for brave Bitches

Topped off with a noticeable red wig 
All put together shows a new girl 
New confident attitude
It was my choice and I liked it

New brave stature
If I can do this, I can do anything 

But it's only a moment of freedom 
By tomorrow it'll be different
In the real world I'll listen
I'll aim to blend in
And become invisible again. 

Woman Manifested: A Poetic Tale is available on Amazon and Createspace.

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