Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Hiding Behind My Dreams While The Stars Stand Out

Sometimes I have these very vivid dreams. The dreams are so powerful that they sometimes scare me. Every now and then I wake up thinking that these dreams actually happen. I go about my day thinking everything is much better, but then I realize things are still the same.

Last night I had a dream where I was working on a movie. Yes, it was a movie. I had written the script and all that was left for me to do was start filming. However, I needed equipment. Someone, I don't remember who,  believed in me so much that they gave me cameras and editing software for my computer. Then once I had the equipment I woke up.

I actually checked my computer when to see if there was anything that remotely resembled the dream. I found nothing. That was when I realized again that's it up to me to make everything happen and I can't depend on any handouts from people. Most people, including family, don't believe in this dream I have because they haven't seen enough to motivate them to believe.

Although the dreams tend to bother me, even scare me, my lack of supporters is why I know I need to just hide behind the dreams. After all a person can't reveal their plans to everyone.

However, stars can easily express themselves. Nicki Minaj proves this in a recent interview with Out Magazine.

"People who like me — they’ll listen to my music, and they’ll know who I am. I just don’t like that people want you to say what you are, who you are. I just am. I do what the f*ck I want to do. The point is, everyone is not black and white. There are so many shades in the middle, and you’ve got to let people feel comfortable with saying what they want to say when they want to say it. I don’t want to feel like I’ve got the gun pointed at my head and you’re about to pull the trigger if I don’t say what you want to hear. I just want to be me and do me.”-- quote via necolebitchie.com

I guess this means when I get to star status it will be okay to reveal everything that is on my mind. Plus, I won't be hiding behind dreams anymore. I'll have reality to back me up.

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