Unprotected (Poem)

I was thinking about a child recently. The thoughts went so deep that I even imagined having one and becoming a single mom. Realistically a child would not fit into my plans or budget right now. So what would I do if I took a risk? I wrote three different scenarios involving unprotected sex, getting an abortion, and giving up a child for adoption. I'd never actually go past the morning after pill, but the poems describe myself in those situations. Here's poem number one. 

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Unprotected

Could it be a girl or a boy?

Or just a figment of my imagination

Cause at this age I want to have a child

And any way is possible

It was a night filled with passion

What’s his name again?

That doesn’t even matter

He stroked my ego with his words

And proceeded to make my body feel right

Even though I should have been protecting my heart

I should have been protecting my body at the same time

His kisses felt so right

And I excused his hands all over me

So no condom was the only way to go

And since we were already raw

Our minds and body

All caution was thrown to the wind

I wanted him to cum in me

Wanted to make a beautiful creation

So I knew the risk

But now, a day later, I’m not ready

Not physically

I’m so shallow

Not financially

I can barely take care of myself

A month from now I might not even be pregnant

But can I take the risk?

I always wanted a little sister

A daughter would make up for it

But I’m not ready

So I come to my senses

And take the morning after pill

My mind stops running wild

At least for the moment in time