Looking For Inspiration, Sunday Reflections

Iyanla Vanzant has a show on OWN called "Fix My Life." This makes me absolutely happy because I've been inspired by her ever since reading her book "Yesterday I Cried." Ms. Vanzant really is a poet, writer, author, life coach, and now has a national television show meant to change others lives for the good. She is truly an inspiration. 

Her show has come at a good time because I'm looking for inspiration. I'm watching others in their crafts to see just how good they are, how they got to their positions, and why they are successful. 

I'm looking for inspiration for myself. I'm trying to see what direction I should be headed in the next five years. People love to ask that question when you're young. Where do you see yourself in five years? I used to have that vision until plans, goals, and ambition started to fall apart. Why this stuff fell apart is not important. It just did and now I'm trying to pick up the pieces and move on. How though? 

I'm looking to see what inspires me. Is it knowing other people's stories? I like to ask questions. It is knowing other people have made it. But what if I don't have what it takes to make it like them? Does settling and trying to be happy with settling inspire me? 

People keep preaching this whole be thankful for where you are perspective. Will my current surroundings inspire where I am in the future? I try to be inspired by my current surroundings. I try to add it in my writing, look for more fun adventures to go on, and even meet new people around me, but more and more it becomes exhausting. If we're supposed to just love where we are, then why does it exhaust me? Why do it just leave me feeling tired and old? 

I'm looking for inspiration. Lately I've made some adjustments, which are supposed to lead me to better experiences and thoughts. Let's see how this all plays out. In a year I don't want to be in this same place. I want to be moving on to better. It takes inspiration for that to happen.