Sunday, June 6, 2010

Listening To Me

I'm confused right now. All of my plans that I made when I was younger are not coming true. This is forcing me to come up with new plans. It's hard though.

On one hand I have my dad telling me I have no choice but to move back home. That's not what I want. I want to be on my own. I want to have the perfect job and a place to myself. I want to depend on only myself. I want my choices to be based upon what I feel I need.

I also have friends asking me when is my first book coming out. The only problem with that is I don't have money to get a book published. I do have something put together. It's called "Poetic Diary Of A College Girl." Since I'm not getting it published yet I'm continually making the poems better. It's only a matter of time before I'm staring at it in book form, but until then I can only dream.

I also  have friends telling me to apply for jobs where they are at. However, do I want to be where they are?

Then last Friday I had a pastor pray for me. After praying he started telling me about the things in my future that God was revealing to him. Some I could see. Others I did not know about. Is what he said my destiny?

It's hard trying to plan your life out and have so many different influences around you. Who to listen to? I'm really trying to shut out all of the voices and listen to my heart.

I think Erykah Badu's song "Window Seat" matches my mood right now.

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