Not A Kid (Poetic Heart)

I just wrote this poem in about 5 minutes.

Enjoy

Not A Kid 

By Miss Too Sexy

Not A Kid

Four Foot Ten, skinny, some see me as too thin

Small breasts, no ass, slim waist, and a baby face

People look at me and think I’m in the fifth grade

Make up and heels on

Then people see me as a little girl trying to be grown

But time and time again I respond to those stares by telling them I’m not a kid

I’m a grown ass woman

When I’m out I can feel the looks of the perverts as they watch

They’re not looking for a relationship

Just fresh impressionable meat, barely legal

They’re thrill seekers trying to see if they can still get a hard on

But they’re also looking pass me

They want a 17 or 18 year old

And a girl like me

A girl that’s 23 and looks like she’s 13 is not their style

But I don’t get it because every other word out of my mouth is:

Grown, mature, adult, looking for love, or even a night of fun

I’m not a kid

I’m a grown ass woman

But sometimes I feel trapped

My parents don’t have to say anything

But their silent words still burn in my brain

Where to go, where not to go

What to do, what not to do

Who to talk to, who not to talk to

Even their contradictory statements stay floating in my head to the point where I find myself in the middle of the street, or looking like a lost kid in the mall because I had turned into a 5 year old with no voice trying to look up to others who wasn’t sure of the answer either

But I’m a grown ass woman

Not a kid

I can’t go to the park

Hop on the swing sets

Climb on the monkey bars

And I can’t go to the theme parks

Ride the kiddy rides

Get my daddy to buy me a drumstick that’s too big for me to finish eating

So I continually remind myself to lean on my own opinion

Because I’m a grown ass woman

Not a little kid

I just hope one day the rest of the world wakes up and sees it.