Why? (Poem)

This happens on way too many occasions.

"Have I already been where I'm gonna go in my life?"

Day in and day out I'm scheming

Working hard to take care of now

But still planning for much better 

A year from now can't wake up and see the same things

Meet a few more physical needs 

Complete a few more goals 

Be prepared to travel brand new roads 

Be able to smile and say I did a little more 

But I don't know why they try to hold me back

Its like I don't deserve a peace of mind

Everywhere I turn they trying to knock me down

With every step I take up, it's something I'm not doing right

Planning to have fun tonight, there's a problem with that

Wanting to make a little more money, she's so selfish for that

I don't know why the pain runs so deep 

What did I do to have strangers hating on me

Smiling in my face because we're at the same level

But laughing behind my back

They don't believe in dreams 

And why it's my own peeps that make me cry at night

I can still hear the echoes of yesterday

Internalizing being called weird 

And always being the one to disappoint 

The disappointments have floated into today

I can't speak up 

Can't say no when there's a need to be alone

Continuously stuck in the box 

Always getting trapped in my feelings

Do I have to make a play like Kandi 

Invite everyone from as far back as I can remember

Show them the damaged girl they've created

She's not a Bitch or a Hoe or a Thot

This is just a reflection of what you've created 

But why I'm so slum to the negative

I know I'm doing right 

On this crazy path there's someone I've inspired

But why I keep falling victim to others opinions

Is it because I'm just playing myself 

"Will everybody who doubted me finally be right?"