Friday, August 10, 2012

Don't Wake Me Up #30in30

I finally signed a lease. By the end of the month I'll no longer have to deal with bossy rude roommates, brothers bursting into my room, or living under my parent's roof. For two whole years I've been waiting for this.

No, I'm lying. For two whole years I've been waiting for my escape to move away to a far away place and start fresh. However, that still seems like an impossible task, so I'm pushing it back it a longer. Well, a year approximately since that's how long my lease will be.

There's not much freshness in this experience. It's 20 minutes away, but it'll be just me. I get to decorate my place how I want, adjust the temperature to my liking, and even maybe walk around the house naked if I want. I've heard of women doing that before. They're alone, so they just strip and enjoy their own company. Plus all the responsibilities of rent and other necessities fall upon me.

This is the part that most people hate, but I'll love it. I'll love taking a part of my paycheck and handing it over for my own comfort. Someone once said that a place of your own is where you can feel the most freedom. Freedom has been running from me for a while, but I've putting on my running shoes and I'm starting to catch up. I'm excited.

Maybe I'll meet a man and he can be invited over. We'll re-enact the scene from Love and Hip Hop Atlanta where Benzino and Karlie chilled in his crib and did that nasty kiss. I want it all and the nasty sloppy kiss will be the icing on the cake. Then again, I want more than that. We'll have to re-enact the scene where Benzino talks to Karlie about her career dreams, but my man will be saying I'm the best already. Wait, ignore all that. I've been single too long.

As excited as I am, I'm also scared. What if something goes wrong? Unemployment is real. What if something happens and my cash flow stops? I need the money. What is being alone isn't everything I've imagined it to be. Shh, don't tell anyone but I'm afraid of silence. This is the reason why I always sleep with the television on. There's comfort in noise, but anything is possible in silence.

Okay, I'm not sure what I'm talking about anymore but August 31st I'll be moving into a new place with "Lashuntrice" as the renter. I'm happy. I must be dreaming. Please don't wake me up.

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